cre8iveLee's profile

Hmmmnn........ABOUT ME,,,,,,

There sure is quite a lot of 'ground' to cover here.  However, I'll begin with:

I'm 61, GrandMother to 5. GDaughter l4, GSons 4 and 10 months [Daughters family]  Then 2 GSons 14 and 11 [My Son]. 

I've had 2 children, who are obviously quite grown. Our Relationship is pretty outstanding>>>>> at least that is what i have been told by other parents.  

I was a very hands-on Mom and had the pleasure {actually, i should say Blessing} of raising them and getting them ready for the 'outside world'.

Yes, they grew up with their Dad, [in home]  who was a nurturing and attentive parent.

I'm proud of my Daughter and Son, now 35 and 34.  Although they were quite NORMAL [if that term qualifies here] teenagers,  a pleasure to raise and brought my husband and I much joy!!!!

Today, they are married with children and spouse(s).  I really get a kick out of watching them experience, as parents, much of what Dad and I had.  You know, the phrases we used, their rolling eyes they thought we didn't see..........those 'antics' they were sure would not be discovered.....etc.,etc.,  Howbeit, they did grow up and as adults and parents are steady and strong in their values .  Do I sound like a braggart??!!

Well, if that's what I am, then so be it.  no sarcasm meant.

There's much more to say about ME:my Life, past and present and in-between. I think for now it's enough.

WEll, except for one more thing........I had mentioned one of my Life's Dreams is 'to heal.......'I will simply say that I am Divorced. My husband of 34 years left........about 6 years ago.

Anyone who has been or is experiencing this event knows the depths of _______ (whatever) it can cause.  Although I have gone through much of the "PROCESS'  to heal..............there still lingers an incredilbly deep pain. I've come to the conclusion that it WILL always be as such........and NOW, I really must find a way to be happy~~~~~not just happy but feeling joy again.  I know there are those of you out there who know EXACTLY WHAT I'm SAYING~~~~~~~

I have done the Counseling, over and over again for nearly 5 years since 2001. The problem[s], I believe, is my inability? to completely 'Let Go...."  and FEAR of Trusting Anyone!

 Then of course, there's still ANGER ISSUES which either linger or pop-up.  Whew, I hadn't planned on going here so soon........but it's out. {is this even the correct Forum?} Truth is, I long for friends as I had; my life and surroundings which I created........; I left the town and state where we had our lives together. ya-da-da-ya-da-da!!!  Too much info. to go into now. 

Anyway, on the lighter side....I'm really glad I had clicked on EONS while browsing.  I hope it will be a rewarding experience for both sides.

TY for reading this.

Leona in MONTANA