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Bamboo Light 

     ~Artist ~~~~Interupted~~~~

The best way to describe the last few years is to just jump in and write about it. When I was young, the only thing I wanted to do was paint, but I was sidetracked by marriage, family, work, buying a home and raising my two beautiful children. I cannot say that my marriage was the greatest, we were very poor, but we had all the needed things in life and things weren't as important as making sure my children had everything and were taught everything THEY needed for life.
Perhaps my choice of husband was not the greatest. I will not go into the particulars of that, but only say that I could take the verbal abuse only so long, and in the end, filed for divorce in 2003.
This began the most life changing string of events that I was not prepared for. At the time, I just wanted freedom from being an enabler, and that meant separating permenantly from my spouse. It is not an uncommon thing. I waited until my children were grown and could better understand my reasons. This perhaps, was not the best thing to do. Older children are affected different ways by divorce, and because they love both parents, find it very hard to accept the separation as the right thing to do. After all, they want only their parents' happiness too, but are powerless in the events to soothe the hurts involved in a divorce of a 23 year marriage. This was something that needed tending and I did my very best to ease my children's feelings through that process.
I believe that this was the beginning of a series of events that took my life from just living day to day and surviving to one of great spiritual
change. Looking back, I am sure that we neglected that very important portion of our lives.
A year later, I was able to begin pursuing that life-long want to really make time to jump into my art, after 20 some odd years. I began by painting mostly my emotions and frustrations, with no true goal. It was therapeutic. It took some time just to get the feel back, but as my painting progressed, I began to experience the joy of creating, the bliss of mixing color, and the personal satisfaction of completing that which I started out to create.
I began a series of paintings of bamboo. I felt a connection to this beautiful plant, and wanted to paint it in all it's different essences. It was shortly after the beginning of this process that things started to become very wierd.
As the days progressed, things began happening that we had no explanation for. Things would move, disappear and reappear. Strange noises were heard, lights flickering on and off. There were strange spills and piles of household items, things arranged in patterns.
There also began a noticable change in the emotions of all who lived in my home. We were quick to anger and we existed with an overall, intense and overwhelming feeling of negativity.
I had to stop painting, and hide my already finished pieces, as everything in the home was attacked in some destructive way.
This progressed to major events, door slamming all night long. Flooding of the house, plumbing and heating and electricity, all tampered with and eventually not working at all. My home and my family were attacked in ways I cannot describe, only to say that after a year, we could no longer endure it.
In that year I'd been laid off from my 18 year job. This was a blow I could hardly live thru. There had already been too much. I remember the exhaustion and sleeplessness, the stress of knowing that I no longer had the income to support my home and family. We'd used every bit of money we had to make repairs in our home, and each and every one of those repairs were attacked and destroyed.
Pretty soon, the cars were also tampered with, the outside of the house was defiled with any and all sorts of household liquids or food.
The list of destruction goes on and on, all worse than before, all devastating and demoralizing to everyone.
My daughter was losing weight and ill, others were in a constant state of hypervigilance. The stress was indescribable.
I was behind in my mortgage, knowing I would never catch up.
The deciding event occured in 2007. Fires were set while my family was sleeping. By this time, we'd had investigating teams in several times trying to discern how and why these events happened, but with no solution or results. We realized that we were dealing with the supernatural and that there was nothing else to do but escape.
This resulted in foreclosure and bankruptcy
We escaped in one weekend with 2 truckloads of belongings. Everything else was left, tainted by
an entity we only heard, felt, and were affected by, but never saw.
When we escaped, we were leaving with our lives. I lost everything important to me, a family, a home,and everything else that was dear to me. None of it was as important as our lives, and I knew that if we had stayed, there would be a death.
After leaving my home, began a time of numbness, confusion, hurt and depression. My family had been
separated, with intense anger and resentments, so much so, that loving people turned to hate for each
other.
I began a journey of healing, concentrating on myself first. I could not help any of the others to heal, unless I healed myself first. As a result, I have taken steps that have taken me further to
enlightenment, of the world, of the spiritual nature of this earth, and the realms that exist that I had no knowing of.
The most important of all, forgiveness. There is no beginning and no end until forgiveness can be achieved.
Once we were moved to the new home, we experienced a blissful peace. No more attacks. We had truly left whatever it was behind. We were lucky that it did not follow in a physical way, but we have a
most difficult road ahead.
I began painting again, and have produced many, many pieces. It was my way to put aside my fears of ever experiencing this again, but knowing that a day may come that I may have to use everything I have learned to either help myself, or others. 
I've become closer to God than I have ever felt in my life, and I hope that I have also succeeded in
teaching my family this also. They will need this knowledge throughout their lives, and hopefully, as they mature and grow and perhaps have family, they will look back on their experience and, even tho we did not overcome it, use the knowledge gained to ensure their own peaceful existence.
In my endeavor to heal, I was helped by a wonderful soul who taught me the path to forgiveness, of myself and all that occurred, and to know that our creator was always with me.

I began drawing and painting at the ripe old age of 5.  Had a couple of my tempera paintings shown at the Laguna Art Festival way back when, LOL, That was the last time that ever happened.  Had a wonderful art teacher in High School, kept me on my toes and encouraged me.  My career of course was my children and now that they are grown I have the time again to pursue my art.  I concentrated on bamboo, simply because of it's beauty.  I can't help but do more.  I love Eons  because of the wonderful folks I've met, and hope to meet more. Do please feel free to browse my paintings and drawings, leave a comment or two, or not, but thank you for looking!

You are welcome to visit my art gallery at:

www.beankittystudio.wetpaint.com

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**SPRITUAL WARFARE 1 AND SPIRTUAL WARFARE 2***

 

Your Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life. You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships. The purpose of your life: showing love to other people Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

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