Message 128 of 1220

Wednesday, 6/25/08 - In the Zone!

I want so many things.

I want to live for many more years, with as little infirmity to slow me down as I can manage. I want my husband by my side. I want to do the things that I enjoy, without getting lightheaded, without getting winded, without gasping for breath, without needing to lie down. I want to be ready for adventure. I want to do new things. I want to explore. I want to discover. I want to be able to dance at two o'clock in the morning if I like the music.

What I am doing now is tied in with everything I want. This is not a little dream. This is not just one of my dreams. This is a vital piece of all of them, and its intensity courses through my veins like fire. I can make this happen. I believe this with all of my heart. And I can see my dreams come to fruition, and that infuses the process with joy.
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I'm with you on this one. I learned in the last 2 years that no blocks need to stay in the way of my dreams. I will not accept my situation if there's any way I can change it and work hard as anything to get it.

Yesterday, I called our local hospital for referrals for weight loss psychologists. I'm getting the list today. But I did go online to check on of the names given. There's a whole dept at that hospital for seniors with eating disorders and depression as I found out.

I checked my Medicare and Blue Cross/Blue Shield coverage. Outpatient talk therapy is covered. I only see my psychiatrist every 4 or 5 months, and call if I need any meds.

Once I get the list, I'll do more research online and through the hospital referral service that relates the background and career of the people involved.

Summer is coming. Asthma prevents me from getting out and enjoying summer in the high 80's or 90's. But I know I can get up and walk early in the am, like even 5 or 6 am to start my day.

Got to find that motivation I had.

Have the conversion with great eating habits. I won't settle for less.
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2 months ago
You're going to love those early morning walks! There's a special kind of freshness in the air, it smells almost as if the world is anticipating the day to come. The sky is still painted with rosy streaks from the newly risen sun, and NOTHING seems impossible when you're out there when the day is just beginning!
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2 months ago
Very well said.
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2 months ago
In the zone - I've got a little more than a month before I go on my Hawaiian vacation. I can get myself in somewhat better shape by then now that I'm off work and a little more focused. Thanks for the boot in the pants. You're right! I can be an inspiration again -especially to myself. Why weigh myself down with things I have no control over.

Hubby is getting over the shingles. He's been in a lot of pain. I went to AZ to support my brother who lost his 20 yr. old son. Half the reason I went is because hubby was giving me grief and I went to make a statement. It was good for both of us. He said he went through the stages of grief - Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and finally Acceptance. I stayed away just long enough for him to appreciate me. Life is good (again)!
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2 months ago
Hooray!!!
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2 months ago
I want to live like too.I have started making a lot of changes in my life,For one thing I have faced and come to except the reason,I have gain weight over the years.I relised it was the same as someone tring to kill there selves.I blamed myself for my Baby Daughter dieing and I
didn't Die,which I was suppose to have Died Too.So I have pounished myself over the years For not dieing,by tring to eat myself to death.These 2 weight loss groups has help me to face my problems and I want to live my life to the fullest now. I looking forward to next year when the weight will be down oh so much more that in years.
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2 months ago
You go girl! You can do it! It is always hard to put the past behind us, especially when it is a sad and senseless event like a death. There is nothing to beat yourself up over; it wasn't your time. Take little steps and focus on the ultimate goal - a healthy new you! Peace to you!
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2 months ago
I'm going to LOVE seeing you achieve your goals, Judy!
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2 months ago