loss of child
Hi, everyone
I am new to eons and to this forum.
My daughter was abducted ,tortured, sexually assaulted and murdered in March of 2000. I would like to have words of encouragement to give to everyone here, but I and my family have none to give. I have no idea whatsoever how anyone survives something like this.
Every day is filled with pain or anger-that's all I have. Oh sure, there are lighter moments, but the "in between" times are hell. And the good stuff is rare and scattered too far apart. I haven't totally given up on life, obviously, but this is the hardest and most pain-filled time of my entire life and I don't see it ever ending. How does one heal? I don't know. So, I continue to breathe, to walk, to work, make all the motions and somehow keep going. It's all so complicated and awful, but what else is there to do? Anti-depressants have been tried but they only mask a bit of the pain and irritate in weird and unexpected ways, so I quit taking them.
Therapy? How can anyone who has never experienced this have any kind of clue about how to deal with it?
As I said before, I really have no help for anyone from needing help so much myself. I don't even really understand what I'm trying to say here, such is the muddled state of my mind. I guess this is kind of a cry for help, as most of the posts here are, but what can be done?
I just don't know.
May we all find true peace someday.
I am new to eons and to this forum.
My daughter was abducted ,tortured, sexually assaulted and murdered in March of 2000. I would like to have words of encouragement to give to everyone here, but I and my family have none to give. I have no idea whatsoever how anyone survives something like this.
Every day is filled with pain or anger-that's all I have. Oh sure, there are lighter moments, but the "in between" times are hell. And the good stuff is rare and scattered too far apart. I haven't totally given up on life, obviously, but this is the hardest and most pain-filled time of my entire life and I don't see it ever ending. How does one heal? I don't know. So, I continue to breathe, to walk, to work, make all the motions and somehow keep going. It's all so complicated and awful, but what else is there to do? Anti-depressants have been tried but they only mask a bit of the pain and irritate in weird and unexpected ways, so I quit taking them.
Therapy? How can anyone who has never experienced this have any kind of clue about how to deal with it?
As I said before, I really have no help for anyone from needing help so much myself. I don't even really understand what I'm trying to say here, such is the muddled state of my mind. I guess this is kind of a cry for help, as most of the posts here are, but what can be done?
I just don't know.
May we all find true peace someday.
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by rhodoan
