40 years
Today would have been my fortieth anniversary. 40 years of that magical love, those shared secrets, that perfect bond. But it was not meant to be. I lost my other half, my soul mate, 2 years and almost 9 months ago. But this day will always be special to me. It brings back memories of being a 17 year old bride, of buying that first house, and welcoming three babies into our lives. I can still hear the laughter, and see the love.
So I went to a special place and sat in the middle of a mountain and let the memories circle me like a slide show. The snow was falling all around me and you could not see any distance at all, but the memories seemed all the brighter for not being able to see the real world. Then I climbed to the top and felt the strength of the wind and the bite of the snow and thanked my husband once again for making me the center of his universe. To have lived with someone who so totally believed in you, that knew there was nothing you were not capable of doing, well it was kind of enabling and comforting. Of course there was also the comfort of knowing he always had my back, I never felt alone, he was always there for me. Still I feel him near and know he rejoices as I find my way alone through this life. That as I find happiness, love and humor he is filled with warmth, for it was my tears he could not stand. How blessed we were and are, for as I always say, the love does not die, it lives forever in your heart. And although I cannot physically pull him to me when I search for his comfort, I will always have the feeling that I am enfolded in his embrace and feel his strength and support. So it has been a magical day, and now I will take the kids out to eat and we will toast this unique and wonderful man and I will know how proud he is of the kids and I will tell him with my heart, it is his spirit of courage and kindness that now grows in the kids.
May the days be kind to us all
Love Ya, Lyn
So I went to a special place and sat in the middle of a mountain and let the memories circle me like a slide show. The snow was falling all around me and you could not see any distance at all, but the memories seemed all the brighter for not being able to see the real world. Then I climbed to the top and felt the strength of the wind and the bite of the snow and thanked my husband once again for making me the center of his universe. To have lived with someone who so totally believed in you, that knew there was nothing you were not capable of doing, well it was kind of enabling and comforting. Of course there was also the comfort of knowing he always had my back, I never felt alone, he was always there for me. Still I feel him near and know he rejoices as I find my way alone through this life. That as I find happiness, love and humor he is filled with warmth, for it was my tears he could not stand. How blessed we were and are, for as I always say, the love does not die, it lives forever in your heart. And although I cannot physically pull him to me when I search for his comfort, I will always have the feeling that I am enfolded in his embrace and feel his strength and support. So it has been a magical day, and now I will take the kids out to eat and we will toast this unique and wonderful man and I will know how proud he is of the kids and I will tell him with my heart, it is his spirit of courage and kindness that now grows in the kids.
May the days be kind to us all
Love Ya, Lyn
