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I need to vent --

I belong to several online spiritual groups and I've come to notice something that a lot of us have in common lately. We're tired. We're weary. We're ready to go home to be with God, our loved ones & the Angels. I'm so tired of trying to figure out how to make life work.

I read the book "The Secret" and watched the movie too. I've read every spiritual book out there so I could improve the quality of my life on all levels.

This is how I feel about manifesting. Like the rest of you I've read tons of books, watched lots of movies, attended lots of seminars and I feel as if I'm missing a piece of the puzzle OR the key that unlocks the answer. In fact, bottom line is I feel like a failure. I've done something wrong that has caused the very thing I desire not to come to fruition. Which in turn causes me to feel depressed and add a dab of hopelessness to it and top it with a 'why bother'.

Cause we can't blame anyone else, right? Can't shake our fist at the skies and rant & rave at the Almighty cause WE are at cause of our reality. What we focus on combined with emotions is what equals our manifestations... so we screwed up. We didn't listen right or we didn't follow the directions correctly or or or MAYBE we're just not good enough.

In fact, this game s.ucks. I don't want to play anymore.

Feel free to rant & rave too. Or not. Totally up to you.

Love,
Theresa
loveofdaisies's profile
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Good morning, I've done the same thing. Read the same books. Perhaps its in the passage or the trip not in the arrival. Maybe we can't get there ourselves and need the last step from Jesus or Heavenly Father? If we did not start the trip then we will never get there but by starting and continuing we put ourselves on that narrrow path to arrive. Am I making any sense? Anyway, In my opinion we must keep moving and trying no matter what. Jay
jaypaco's profile

over 2 years ago
I too feel like I want go home (Which is not here on the Earth), but I continue to survive another day. So I think it is not yet my time to go!
Jim
Monteguy's profile

over 2 years ago
That's what I think too Jim - if I still wake up, must not be my time to cross over. *sigh*

For me, and maybe for some of you too, the joy in life has gone. I feel as if I accomplished everything I had come here to accomplish and now I'm just taking up space... muddling my way through another meaningless day.

I'm not suicidal mind you - I would never think of intentionally ending my life... BUT if the good lord should decide to come get me in my sleep, I would not put up a fight.

Love,
Theresa
loveofdaisies's profile

over 2 years ago
Perhaps the Lord has something in mind for you to finish before you leave this Earth.
mrschris's profile

over 2 years ago
Mrschris, I believe that you are right on - my task is to find out what it is that I am supposed to do!
Jim
Monteguy's profile

over 2 years ago
my opinion,.......take it or leave it.........
I know a lots of the scriptures are debateable, but Jesus is our brother and he came first to make a way for us. Some one had to be first. We are heirs WITH him, but he said " Greater things shall you do than these(meaning what he has done) because he said " I go to my Father", So I have concluded that right now we are in the grave(dead) so to speak, before our rescurrection.Don't you FEEL dead? I do. This last age will be super natural. Maybe 2012, I hope.
Another thing, if I thought I was responsibe for my life turning out like this, I would have no hope too. I think God planned out my life, to bring me through things for my own good. He said in the scriptures that he chose us, we didn't choose him. Think about it. We are living out his plan if I didn't think he was in control of my life, I would be most miserable.
bamasmom's profile

over 2 years ago
I feel like you. I am not suicidal but I do feel hopeless most of the time. I don't want to die but yet I keep talking about it as if I'm going to soon and I've read the same books and hate them. I don't want all the blame on me. If I can't feel positive 24 hours a day seven days a week that makes me human. Sure I don't want to be negative either but I believe in balence. sometimes our negativity gets put out of balence and we need to correct that but to never have any is unrealistic. You are not a failure. Neither am I we have just suffered a lot, came through it like a champ and are waiting for something big to happen and it just isn't happening. That doesn't mean it won't. Hang in there Theresa. You are not alone. I'll bet most of this group feels like you at least some of the time even if they don't admit it. I'm admitting it, I do.
Bel
TaylorBel's profile

over 2 years ago
I have read done etc etc
I found these 2 links. The 1 talks about McSpirituality
Anyway it has helped as I think why do I have M.S.
What did I forget to do.

view link view link
lightlanguage's profile

over 2 years ago
Thank you for your honesty Bel and for being able to understand.
loveofdaisies's profile

over 2 years ago
Light, thank you also for these links. I apologize if you felt my post was about 'getting stuff.' That couldn't be further from the truth. I am 50 years old & own very little and I'm ok with that. Things don't bring me pleasure. Experiences like hearing my 2 year old granddaughter sing twinkle twinkle to the very best of her ability is what brings me joy.

However, the one object that I have always lacked and my heart desires more than anything else - is being in a healthy, romantic, committed relationship. I have been single & alone for 98% of my life and I'm not quite sure how many years I have left - but I feel before I do die, I would like to experience this and so that's where I have placed my focus.

Please, no suggestions - trust me when I share that I have "done it all!" Really I have. So please forgive me if I came across as being a material girl.

Love,
Theresa
loveofdaisies's profile

over 2 years ago
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