You left all that is familiar and comforting to you. I found the first few times I was away for more than a few hours I too felt out of step and back at the beginning of my grief. Somehow, especially when we are out and about we look for that person who is suppose to be holding our hand, making comments on the scenery and suggesting places to eat. It is always shocking, no matter how much we know in reality, to find they are not there.
In time my trips got easier, but still there is always an ache, an emptiness, a spot that won't be filled.
So I share in my thoughts and dreams and know how blessed I was. For it was magical and I don't think everyone gets to experience that.
I am glad you got some time away and was with others, although difficult it was still good for your soul.
Love Ya, Lyn
posted by lyn07
over 2 years ago
Marty, I know how you feel. I went on my first long weekend with family a couple of months ago. It was certainly a pleasant time but it just wasn't the same and I looked forward to getting back to my safe little home. It does make the emptiness worse, I think. But I know that each it is important to venture out. I think that we are more comfortable at home because we get used to that. So my thinking is that if I venture out more I will become more comfortable. I'm proud of you for taking this vacation.
Marty, I'm glad you made the trip - even though you were miserable. It was a step in the right direction, and the next time should be easier on your spirit. I agree that home may get too comfortable. If nothing changes, nothing changes, and I need to move forward even a little. So, I will do some things this holiday season that I really don't want to do.
