6 years Thanksgiving uuugghh
Hi! I am Joy. I have been widowedfor 5 years now. It will be 6 Thanksgiving day. I have been doing okay with it for sometime but then when I realized it was on Thanksgiving something in me has started all the yuk over again. I have been trying to move on and see other people, I am only 45 and don't want to be alone for rest of my life. Our anniversary would have been the 23rd of this month, then thanksgiving is the anniversary of his death, then my birthday and Christmas. Man if it aint hard enough all kinds of stuff has been happening tomake emotions go nuts. Will it ever go back to normal? Can I ever stop feeling like I have a huge hole in me that needs to be filled and can't. Many times I wonder why him and not me cause he had so much to offer and me well.......I just want to love be loved and feel like I have value and worth, is that so much to ask?
