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HI

Hello to all my old friends and anyone else here, I hope you don't mind if I come back to Eons, I have been so lonely lately, esp. since I quit the prison. I only work 2-3 days a week so I have a lot of time on my hands, more than ever since I lost Randy, and now that I have found Mike and he's sort of in my life, if I get to see him before he's released or paroled. Tell me please, does it sound terrible if I kind of admit that I hate it without him, to have a man love me again but never get to touch him or even see him is killing me. I can't wait til he gets out, but like I told him the other night what happens if I die waiting for him to come home to me? Will I have wasted my life? Need some advice, I have missed so many of my friends here, hope to find you all ok. CC
cclyda's profile
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CC - search deep into your soul and the answer will be there. Does this relationship enhance your well being, or not? Are you missing out on doing what you enjoy while you wait for him or are you living your life to the fullest and his release will only make a good life better? Only you know the answers to whether this relationship is good for you. I am sure everyone here wants the best for you and knows only too well how profound grief can distort your reasoning. So search your heart and soul deeply and I hope you find the answers you are looking for.
jerrysgirl's profile

about 1 month ago
CC - so glad that you are back in touch. you are so special. I agree with Jerrysgirl. I'll add my prayers that God will steer you in the right direction. Hugs, Pat
starynights's profile

about 1 month ago
I'm with jerrysgirl search deep in to your soul and you will find the answer. But just do not miss out in life because life to short to miss it.
disney2500's profile

about 1 month ago
CC, it is nice to see you again. We were hoping you would come back to check in.

I guess the question is, does this relationship make you happy ?? I would hate for you to be waiting on something that may never happen, and miss out on something that may have alot more to offer you in the present. It's so easy to "fall in love", or to feel "in love", but don't you wonder what it would really be like if he were on the outside ?? Would you truly be compatible ?? Could it sustain the test of time ??

As Jerrysgirl said, you need to look deep inside your soul to see if this is really the life you want.... waiting and hoping. And if it is, then I do absolutely wish you well. We can't help who we fall in love with.... the heart knows what it wants.
Rocksadie's profile

about 1 month ago
CC, welcome back! We've missed you. The others have said it so well... Just do what is best for you, now and in the long-run. Be sure that love is real, not 'convenient.'
hugs...marty
thmarty's profile

about 1 month ago
CC,
I was praying you would come back to the group because it has not been the same without you and now my prayers were answered. CC, no one can tell you what to do, you know that, and I think everyone is right when they tell you to search deep down in your soul and maybe ask Randy what to do. Only you can choose what is right or wrong for you and I missed you so much. I think you just needed a break from the groups and sadness for awhile. Nice to have you back!
Hugs,
Kathy
beaniekath's profile

about 1 month ago
Hello CC an weclcome back we have really missed you. Please do alot of soul seaching in the matter you wrote about. you are a very sweet peason but you also have to be careful of people in prison. They will say anything to get what they want. Being in the court system I know what gose on. Please just stop an do alot of soul seaching on this. Talk to RAndy in prayers I know HE will lead you in the right dirction. We all love you an care very much about you. MAY THE GOOD LORD BLESS YOU AN KEEP YOU SAFE A friend for life JOE
joefall2008's profile

about 1 month ago
Let me add my welcome back CC, while we have maintained contact through another site, it is good to see you back here.

I am not sure what advice I can give you that hasn't already been said. I think most of us are not in a position to tell you how to proceed. I can only say give the matter lots of prayer and my God lead you were He wills you should go.
wolflt52's profile

about 1 month ago
Welcome back CC we have missed you.I have been praying for you to come back as for your question I can only say the others have given you the best advice that can be given talk to Randy about it he will help you and Father God will lead you in the right direction. I will pray that Father God helps you to make the right decision for you. We all love you and want you to be happy as you have the right to be happy.

Hugs
mooseie
mooseie's profile

about 1 month ago
Sorry, been trying to answer this for a while but Booboo wants a lot of my attention this morning and when she wants on my lap that's all I can do is play with her, she's so big now. Yes I talk to Randy all the time and as I said 6 months ago, I really think he sent Mike into my life. He tells me all the time, GO FOR IT, HE NEEDS YOU, I know Mike loves me the only thing he has asked from me is to marry him, I told him yes, but I think I want to wait til he gets out, it shouldn't be too long now, maybe a year, sounds like a long time, but as we all know time just keeps going faster and faster as we get older, Thanks for the welcome back, I love all of you so much, you have been great friends since I lost Randy.
cclyda's profile

about 1 month ago
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