Alone

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Hello,

Please enjoy the video, link above.

It has been 19 1/2 months since I became a widow at age 62. It has been 19 1/2 months of loneliness, tears, depression and sleepless nights. Brain Cancer came like a thief in the night. It took his ability to walk, reason, remember, eat, and drink. It was months of chemo, radiation and loss of dignity. Then, it took his life.

If only I had seen this coming...If only it had been caught sooner, If only I could go with him. If only....I can find something to live for again. It hasn't happened yet.

Before the beast entered our lives, we were as one. We didn't have many friends because were best friends. We enjoyed each other and had wonderful times together. We had retired and looked forward to the 'Golden Years" as our children raised families of their own. The 'Golden Years" are the pits when you are alone night after night, week after week, season after season.

I hope you can move on with your life, find happiness and learn to enjoy things again. I have heard that the deeper the love, the deeper the sorrow when one passes. I think this is true.

Annie

posted by MsGaAnne

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Annie, you're a few weeks ahead of me on this journey. The paragraph starting "Before the beast entered our live..." could have been written by me. Yes, the Golden Years are the pits when you're alone night after night.

I believe I am moving on with my life, but very slowly. I don't want to miss David if he comes back...

posted by thmarty
over 2 years ago

P.S. What a poignant film. It brought tears to my eyes and gratitude to my heart. Thank you!

posted by thmarty
over 2 years ago

Annie the film was beautiful. It brought tears to my eyes too. It would be surprising if it didn't bring tears to our eyes. I also believe that the deeper the love the deeper the sorrow. We get on with our lives but that love is always in our hearts. The Beast took our loved ones too soon and now our Golden Years are spent alone.

Hugs......Sue

posted by suecitysue
over 2 years ago

That was absolutely beautiful made me cry once again I just keep saying I know the wounds will eventually heal but these scars will never go away

posted by warriorindi
over 2 years ago

That film truly touched my heart, and it's message is so true. Thank you for posting it.

posted by Rainbowblue1953
over 2 years ago

Thanks for posting that film. It always helps to be reminded that we are never truly alone.

posted by esmere
over 2 years ago

Wow...that was beautiful...I opened this with hesitation, not wanting to start my day with tears AGAIN...yes the tears did fall....he was 65 and just ready to begin our golden years of retirement...the beast attacked us the same way and I still want it to have been me instead, but he is free now. I will press on as he would want me to...it's been over two years and the sadness still comes in waves, but I am seeing more of the beautiful things in life now and reasons for being left behind. Nevertheless, I will be overjoyed when my name is called and I go home to be with the Lord and Tom forever.

Blessings to you,
Lani

posted by Ohiowoman
over 2 years ago

Lovely, thank you for sharing. Tears in my eyes, of course, but good tears...

posted by ozarkreader
over 2 years ago

Thank you so much for sharing the video, it was beautiful and I like everyone else had tears in my eyes, but they were not sad ones, they were good ones. My husband died Sept 24, 2007 and so this journey continues, but it truly sucks.
Hugs,
Kathy

posted by beaniekath
over 2 years ago

That film was great Annie. thanks so much for posting it & thanks so much for being my friend. Many of us are hurting and hurting alot. It
at least knows we are not really "ALONE", altho it seems like it, "WHAT
A FRIEND WE HAVE IN JESUS" as the song goes. And truely he is our friend,
first of all and is always there for us. And then we have this group of
friends that are so caring. God Bless All of You. Dora