I sit and think about all the good memories that my son left us with, and that keeps us in tears of happiness but those sad times comes along also and that also keep us in tears. It is not whining and you do that any time you want. I was told like 1 month after my son went on to Glory that the past is the past and now it is time to get on with your life. I was like really shocked at that statement and it being a minister also, I wanted to say things that probably wouldn't be good. I am not any longer sadden with that thought, for my son is not just my pass, he is my now and forever, and there are going to be times that you cry even harder when it is that 1st time doing what the both of you all did and now it is just one.I shred a tear every Sunday to sit in the congregation and not see my son sitting at the guitar, the piano, or the drums. Girl go ahead and whine, cry, kick and do what you do. For they don't know what it means to carry a child for nine months and then in a short lived life that child is gone.
