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I love the smell of leaves burning, the chestnut trees and the cool, crispness of the air. I love to hear the children running and playing in the leaves that they have raked together and the clearness of the birds in the morning.

I enjoy all the beautiful things that God has created for our eyes to see, our noses to smell, our hands to touch and our hearts to feel & share. Fall is the final Hoorah before the bleakness of winter sets in upon us. I hope that you will get out and enjoy this wonderful season...and think of your angel as you walk among the leaves. If God made earth this beautiful...can you just imagine what Heaven must be like???

Boy, you're on a nature high, so nice when the air is crisp and clean. some days I don't even go outside, wouldn't know if it was rain or shine. Sometimes I just fall into a depression that keeps me down for a few days. Maybe the crisp air will help. My son was trying to get me out of the house today but I didn't go. Maybe tomorrow.

I also love the fall...we had a beautiful day in Atlanta yesterday. Today it is cloudy and unfortunately they are calling for more rain.

Drewsmom, I sure hope that you are able to start feeling better soon. Maybe as you said going out in to the crisp fall air will help. The colors surely are beautiful!

I love the picture pigs......

Drewsmom you really need to get out of your funk and enjoy this wonderful season. Drew loved this season and I know he would want to see you outside where you will be close to his kindred spirit. I know how you feel, I get those days too. Go outside with your son & granddaughter and make some new memories.

Lost they are calling for rain here starting Tues. I have lots to do outside before it hits us too. I got that picture off of Photobucket...wish my farm looked that nice..ha ha. The mountain behind the house reminded my of the place where my grandpa had his cabin back in Pa.

What a beautiful picture. I have always loved this time of year. Rachel's birthday is October 20. She would be turning 22. She would always like to combine her birthday celebrations with halloween. She loved going to a particular haunted house in our neighborhood. She had spent this past year teasing her niece about how she was going to make her go with her this year. Before she died on August 12 she was upset thinking that she wouldn't be able to take her because she was in a wheelchair. We assured her we would find a way for all of us to go. Anyway, her sisters and I are planning on taking Kayla for her - to......I don't know.......to 'honor' her wish I guess. It seems weird maybe but we're just lost. I'm just lost. I miss her more every day. I'm trying to push forward........getting involved in my 15 yr olds homecoming dance.........and other things......fun things......But the ache and sadness is always there......I work so hard to hide it. These moments in high school can't be relived later. I know she misses her sister too.......I want to make it easier for her to enjoy them. I don't want her to feel guilty for having fun. I am just so incredibly sad. I still have moments where it just feels like the wind has been knocked out of me. She is really gone. The more time that goes by.....the more permanent it is....It just isn't getting easier.

Sorry..........check me out rambling.....when you were just sharing a beautiful fall picture.

First let me offer my deepest sympathy to you and your family. I know just how hard it is for you. We are very glad that you have found our group, and we are here for you with open arms and hearts. Right now things are looking very raw and bleak to you. You lost one of your children and that is something that is hard to realize...especially for a mother. She may be gone from your lives but she will never be gone from your memories. Cherish the years you had with her and never allow anyone to ruin those thoughts & memories that you shared together. Just remember that your family needs you more than ever in their daily lives. By all means take Kayla where they had planned and let her know just how much your daughter will enjoy seeing her having fun. Getting involved with your other daughters activities will help ease the hurt for both of you. Please don't try to hold everything inside yourself...it's okay to let others see you cry, hear about how much you miss your daughter. This would be a good time to sit down with your other daughter and have a good old fashioned mom & daughter talk about how each of you feel. Talking about your daughters death really does start the healing process. Holding your feelings in can only bring about problems for your own bodies. I encourage you to talk with us here in the group...we have all been in your position and we really do understand. We will pray that you will get the help and understanding that you are seeking. Nothing is to trival when we all work together.
(((((Hugs)))))
Lonna

Dear Lonna and group,
What a beautiful picture!....makes me feel a little better...BUT I am also having a hard time with this "Fall" season. I know healing is an on going process...but i seem totake 2 steps forward...but 3 step back! Too many rainy sun- less days took me way down;;; now feeling lil more brighter...Gosh, the weather, seasons do make a difference! Im blessed to have many friends and family. And I know Imust take my own advice... TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME. love to all, Denise (Shawns mom)

Denise those rainy cloudy days do make our spirits go in a downward pattern as well as our energy level but God always allows the sunshine to bring us back up. It is really sunny here this morning but pretty chilly. I took the trash out a little after 6am and it was about 40°. Just be thankful that you are able to take those 2 steps forward and forget about the 3 steps backward...God is still with you and will always be right there beside you feeling everything that you are feeling...after all Shawn was His child first. The one step at a time is hard at times but think of what we will gain in the end....we will get to see Shawn & Leanna someday again. Have a great week and keep looking up!
Hugs,
Lonna

Hi Lonna and everyone! Although I am on the loan side of the computer experience, I wanted to join in wishing everyone a beautiful, peaceful and cheery month! Daf