Hi aquawaltz,
I know the feeling; or at least I used to. When I found myself single after several years of marriage, I was lost. I've dated off and on these past years, and now have become pretty much a loner. I don't mean I am a hermit or anything, but I found I can manage my life without a steady person in it. I do have several friends, both in real life, and online both. In April this year, I retired, and haven't stopped since. Somebody asked me in July if I had gotten bored yet. I told them, "No! I have too much to do!"
I guess what I am trying to say is, "Hang in there! Things will get better!" I wish you loads of luck in everything.
By the way...Is there a typo in your profile? You are listed as being 68, but from the picture, you have to be much younger!
Byeee!
Gerri