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for the better, I hope. I've noticed in the past few days that I am back to listening to PBS music in my car - not just playing David's CD over and over and over. I'm remembering more and more special moments we had together, and the tears come gently, but unexpectedly.
I'm buckling down and taking care of what needs to be done around the house - tasks that I've put off for so very long.

I'm reminded of an analogy a friend told me long ago... When you drop a bar of soap in the bath tub and grab for it, it just keeps squirting away. If you just let it come to you, you'll have it. I think I've stopped grabbing, grasping...

posted by thmarty

I'm glad for my Marty. It is good that you can listen to music and that you are remembering special moments. It does sound like you have stopped grabbing and grasping at things. Hugs.....Sue

posted by suecitysue
3 months ago

Good for you Marty. You have came a long way since we first arrived here and I am happy for you.

((((((((((( hugs )))))))))))))))

posted by Tsulawmn
3 months ago

Marty,
I am so happy for you and a little bit jealous of how you have moved on with your life. I am coming up on 2yrs. soon and I am still having good days and horrible ones, but it has become better since I don't cry everyday anymore. Keep taking those baby steps forward and you will be fine. Keep up the good work and keep moving forward.
Hugs,
Kathy

posted by beaniekath
3 months ago

Yeah for you thmarty. As everyone says two steps forward 1 step back,but at least we move a little ways.

posted by casey6749
3 months ago

That's SO true!
When we try to force things or do it all on our own, it slips away.
That's a good saying.

posted by Opalwhyne
3 months ago

Hi Marty
Someone once told me years ago that I am like a dingy in the water- I go down but keep popping up and staying afloat! ( I look like a dingy- fat bottom and small top)

I just recently had a very real dream... I fell into a huge pool and went straight down and I could feel myself drowning, but I started to float up and someone came to pull me out of the water. !

Hmmm. staying afloat after drowning That seems to really put it in front for me.

On the other hand , I just called the Dr. today to ask for meds for ADD or something like Concerta. I cannot seem to do the work I need to at the office and that is where I think the drowning and panic feelings are the most.

Have a good day and lets keep floating to the top. all of us

Susan

posted by grannieofthree
3 months ago

Marty,

It sounds like you are taking that second step forward. Time is on our side. It is good to recognize these small steps for all of us! How about a BIG GROUP(((((((((HUG))))))))))))!