Marty, David is there watching what you are doing and saying attagirl.
He is always with you. You may be wishing that David would come home again, which is a normal reaction. I have a lot of things to do here but I ask what for. He isn't here to see it. It is just our grief talking to us. Hugs....Sue
Marty,
I agree with Sue that David is rooting you on as y;ou do the yard work, although it really sucks that we have to do all the things ourselves. I am doing the housework with the same attitude as Sue has, why bother. After my bedroom started to have cobwebs growing I decided I had better get the vacuum and dusting going again, just to keep the spiders away from me as I am sleeping. I am with you in wishing Jack would come back and we could get in one more argument about something trivial and then make up after it. Oh well wishful thinking.
Hugs,
Kathy
I can truly relate about the yard work. I've always taken pride in keeping the yard looking good, and Ann always complimented me on it. Now I have a hard time getting motivated just to do it for myself.
Same here. Dave kept the yard looking great. I have not so now I have to get some professional help to get it back under control. Hopefully they will be here tomorrow. I have over the last 14 months at times be able to make improvements to the place and they look good but sometimes I just get down and wonder what's the use. Dave is not here to see them. My motivation is not there either...this truly sucks!
Marty, you deserve an "attagirl" just for having the motivation to do the yardwork. I am trying but the who cares attitude seems to hit every time I start. It seems so strange to not hear the good job or can I help you from anywhere. In fact it is the no reaction to anything that is so hard to take. I keep hearing that old Simon & Garfunkle song "Sounds of Silence" in my head when I do anything lately. I planted a tree for Jim on Sunday and the dog lifted his leg and pissed on it. That seems to describe this life. Well, you get a pat on the back from me.
"I planted a tree for Jim on Sunday and the dog lifted his leg and pissed on it."
LOLOL that made me giggle since the same thing happened to me not long ago. Sure summed up the day for me.
You do deserve atta girl. Our yard was always Jerrys baby. Now that he is not here I can only hector my grandson into mowing and keeping the weeds down, and our flowers are strictly the hanging pot kind. I do try to keep them watered and deadheaded, but plants are really not my thing.
You do deserve credit Marty. I know it is hard to do all of that be yourself. I've never been a yard person. Ken did all that. In Michigan we had three acres of pines. You don't have to do much with that. I love flowers and the new house I moved into desperately needs something in the yard. But that who cares attitude is where I am at right now. I have been in the house for almost two months now and it is really now even unpacked except for necessities and pictures. I am starting to hate living this way so maybe that is a sign of improvement. I don't know. Deb
I like working in the yard, but my husband mowed the grass. Now I have to do that also.
I am so bogged down with everything that I have to take care of now that sometimes I wonder why I even get out of the bed. I also still think on some days he will be back.
I know exactly how you feel Marty!
Since I work from home I always took care of the yard work by myself during my slow work times. When I use to get a lot of work Mike would help me out when he got home. I do miss the days when I had a chance of getting things all done and how happy he would be that we would have time to do other things together since I had a chance to get the outdoor work completed. I miss my "attagirl" from Mike . Now I cut and don't care about the weeds, haven't planted any flowers but have been lucky for the second summer my half whiskey barrel has flowers in it again from the seeds of the last two years flowers. I planted some type of hanging petunia in it I think three summers ago, last year I was in a bad state of mind so I never bothered with flowers and the flowers grew on their own. I checked again the other day and it looks like they are appearing again...only this time a little more thinned out. I just don't feel the same about anything anymore without Mike. It will be one year July 2 and I feel even more empty now than I did at this time last year when I knew the end would be soon.
I really miss having that someone special to share even a small accomplishment with, such as cutting the grass.
