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My 18 year old Daughter Alyssa died suddenly of a pulmonary embolism on January 4th 2009. She was my only Daughter, my best friend and I don't know how I am going to live without her. She was a Senior and would be graduating high School this June, she was so excited she had her college picked out her dorm room and roommate picked out, she wanted to be a 2nd grade teacher, she was great with kids. Alyssa was a type 1 diabetic since she was 11 YO and she went to a diabetic camp for the last 7 years the last 2 as Councelor in training, this would have been her 1st year as a councelor and she was going to councel at 2 diabetic camps, she loved the kids there and all the friends she made in the past 7 years. She was a social butterfly and had more friends that we could keep track of, I learned things about her after she died that I did not know, Every person who talked to us at her service and in notes said that Alyssa was the one anyone could go to with their problems, she took time to help them and give advise even if she was having a bad day.

I miss her Beautiful smile and her warm hugs, the sound of her voice when she said "hi mommy" even at 18 she still called me Mommy. She was becomming a beautiful young woman right before my eyes and I was looking forward to our continuing and growing friendship.

I just don't understand why this happened. I believe she is in Heaven and that I will see her again someday, however I feel that someday will take forever.

I feel like my heart has been ripped out, I can't stop crying. I know she would not want me to be sad, but it is so hard not to be, I just miss her so much.

Thank You for allowing me to introduce myself and my daughter to you.

Dori
Minnesota