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How can I keep hoping
Each year my life will improve?
When it seems like
I'm very much stuck in a groove.

And the groove gets deeper and darker
And more depressing each year.
Till I want to just scream,
"GOD, stop it! YOU hear?"

My kids are all gone
Except one here in town.
And she ignores me
Whenever I'm around.

The man that I love is dying;
But, even worse,
He's suffering so much...
I think I am cursed.

I'm really trying to focus on the good!
I really truely am.
I know how blessed I am
To have finally found this man.

I'm grateful my children and theirs
Are all alive and well,
Though each one has real problems,
And, once again, I try not to dwell.

My life is like an iceberg,
With all the good on top.
The bad things are down below,
So vast they never stoop.

Stop, hell! They keep growing!
(And I thought last year was bad.)
I'm absolutely terrified of next year,
This one's been so sad.

I have no hope of life getting better,
Because every time I dare,
Something bad happens to someone I love
Sometime, somehow, somewhere.

mothergeorge
11-27-06

Life does get 'tegious' (sp?) doesn't it, mg, but I'm so glad you're here, and posting. You're definitely not alone . . . and the New Year will surely bring new beginnings, to make with them what we will . . . wont' it?