Lesson 285
My holiness shines bright and clear today.
It feels like my mind is split cleanly down the middle with the Holy Spirit on one side and the ego on the other. The Holy Spirit says that my mind is holy and that I and my Father are one. He says I am meant for joy and happiness, and that I am never alone. The Holy Spirit says there is nothing to worry about because I am always exactly as I was created. The ego says just the opposite of everything the Holy Spirit says.
I know that the split is not down the middle. The ego part of my mind is not as fully developed as the Holy Spirit. It is just a tiny splinter in the mind of God’s Son, a single thought awaiting my forgiveness so that I can, again, experience myself as I am, whole and complete. The ego side only seems large because in my myopic vision of it, I see little else. If I were to shift my attention just a little I would see the vastness, and the beauty of my Self.
Evidently I don’t want to do this. I seem to be afraid of it, so I just cut my eyes over to the side, and briefly, I see something glorious and my heart soars. Then I think about something sad or frightening and my mind is off and running toward the ego. I caught myself doing that yesterday and pulled myself up short. I reminded myself that I have enjoyed all the dramas I care to and that there is something else to life. I asked the Holy Spirit to help me hold to my new vision by reinterpreting this latest ego trauma drama for me. It is so much easier to do this if I don’t let myself get so caught up in it, if I ask for help right away.
Acceptance of all things just as they are is proving very helpful to me. As I, more and more, become willing to simply accept whatever is in my life as perfect for my awakening, I am more joyful and more willing to accept my holiness. At first the idea of accepting those events that seem painful as being perfect was a real stumbling block. I could say the words, but knew full well I didn’t mean them. What I wanted was to ask for release from the pain.
I put my faith before me, though, and kept practicing. Now I say the words with more conviction, and even when I wish for easier lessons, I do not doubt the value of the lesson and am willing to continue. I am also willing to experience it with more detachment. I really do not believe this has to be painful…ever. I am getting little glimpses of the possibility of all experiences being joyful because they are either experiences of my Self, or experiences of awakening to my Self, and so are cause for joy. I am not there yet, but what I can see, I can reach with just a little consistent willingness.
It feels like my mind is split cleanly down the middle with the Holy Spirit on one side and the ego on the other. The Holy Spirit says that my mind is holy and that I and my Father are one. He says I am meant for joy and happiness, and that I am never alone. The Holy Spirit says there is nothing to worry about because I am always exactly as I was created. The ego says just the opposite of everything the Holy Spirit says.
I know that the split is not down the middle. The ego part of my mind is not as fully developed as the Holy Spirit. It is just a tiny splinter in the mind of God’s Son, a single thought awaiting my forgiveness so that I can, again, experience myself as I am, whole and complete. The ego side only seems large because in my myopic vision of it, I see little else. If I were to shift my attention just a little I would see the vastness, and the beauty of my Self.
Evidently I don’t want to do this. I seem to be afraid of it, so I just cut my eyes over to the side, and briefly, I see something glorious and my heart soars. Then I think about something sad or frightening and my mind is off and running toward the ego. I caught myself doing that yesterday and pulled myself up short. I reminded myself that I have enjoyed all the dramas I care to and that there is something else to life. I asked the Holy Spirit to help me hold to my new vision by reinterpreting this latest ego trauma drama for me. It is so much easier to do this if I don’t let myself get so caught up in it, if I ask for help right away.
Acceptance of all things just as they are is proving very helpful to me. As I, more and more, become willing to simply accept whatever is in my life as perfect for my awakening, I am more joyful and more willing to accept my holiness. At first the idea of accepting those events that seem painful as being perfect was a real stumbling block. I could say the words, but knew full well I didn’t mean them. What I wanted was to ask for release from the pain.
I put my faith before me, though, and kept practicing. Now I say the words with more conviction, and even when I wish for easier lessons, I do not doubt the value of the lesson and am willing to continue. I am also willing to experience it with more detachment. I really do not believe this has to be painful…ever. I am getting little glimpses of the possibility of all experiences being joyful because they are either experiences of my Self, or experiences of awakening to my Self, and so are cause for joy. I am not there yet, but what I can see, I can reach with just a little consistent willingness.
