The Insignificant Woman

Nanakay, I have struggled with my weight, too! And I've decided some things, dang it. If I can't be skinny, I'll be golden brown thanks to those wonderful instant tan products. I'll smell good, as I use my favorite perfume. I'll wear makeup even when I'm doing yardwork.
Of course, it helps that my husband is supportive and noncritical since he struggles with weight, too. We eat healthy and exercise, but both qualify as "overweight." I refuse to be judged by my pounds! I will not be ignored! You are a beautiful person. Don't let other people make you feel this way. Talk nice to yourself!

I'm not fat--I'm voluptuous. I'm a heavy-duty cutie. Not large, but grand.

I was a beanpole as a child, and thin as young woman. As close as a few years ago I was the Barbie doll, or so my friends said. In January of 2006 I was rear-ended by another driver and my neck was damaged. With the injury came all the treatments and drugs. Just hurting tires one, and all the extra things make more responsibilities a burden. Over time and the inability to be active I have gained weight. In my closet are size 6 up to size 20. It is not the weight that has me disturbed, but the treatment by others. I have had both the good and the bad, with both being thin, and being heavy. While thin I found women judged me on sight, men judged me on sight. I was both hated and desired, yet not one knew me. In my heaviness I have found more acceptance with women (is that crazy?) and no acceptance (desire to have, or attention) from men. I never valued myself for the superficial, only felt to be the best person I can be. The weight has not made me less of a person. Still, I do not get the respect, the service, the consideration I once received. It is as if I have a disease. I am not taken seriously, as if my I.Q was also related to being heavy. It has been an experience and a teaching tool for me. I was on insensitive to others before, but this has given my understanding.

Blessings,

I never had to think of myself as heavy until a medication I am taking began putting weight on me. Now I am in a size 20 and qualify as fat. It's true that one is treated differently as a large person and there is much discrimination. I will not let it get to me. I will be like belaine, not large but grand! I will stand by my sisters who struggle. We come in all sizes and shapes and we are all beautiful.