Today I find sadness permeating me from head to toe. A grown up woman feeling the loss of something she was never meant to hold on to in the first place.

The reason for my sadness. My daughter and her family, which consist of her hubby and two of the most gosh darn cute, lively, smart and well-behaved little girls that God has ever graced the planet with...and heck no, I am not prejudiced. I know good kids when I see 'em; are leaving the state to make their new home in the GREAT STATE OF TEXAS with a T!

Anyway, this day has been looming and it will arrive this week. So instead of enjoying the present moment as I have always believed is most important I am dreading the soon to be present moment when they will make their way to Texas and leave me behind blowing kisses in the wind and waving my hand till I become like "Grannie," on the old Beverly Hills sitcom.

I know our children are here to become their own people and to make their own way in their own lives, and I am happy for them. Of course I will worry and pray and pray and worry that all will be well for them. That they are happy and secure and satisfied and fulfilled, but it does not preclude this heart of mine from missing them tremendously.

Maybe we should have raised our children to be mean and spiteful and then this wouldn't hurt so much, but truly both our son and daughter are hard working, loving, caring and giving humans and model citizens of the world.

So, this week, when you are doing whatever it is that you happen to be doing, stop for one moment and send a prayer my way because I'll be needing some strength and some solace and knowing you are out there sending me some good vibes will ease my troubles, that's what they'll do. (just like the songs says.. :)

Keeping the faith! --PJ