... and he's GONE by CarrieJean

posted about 1 year ago, updated 7 days later

Tonight was the night we had to let our beautiful Noah go. I'm crying. Providence, in her care, saw to it that I was home with him all day. Instead of going into DC for 12 hours, I had a training class nearby. I got to the hotel only to find I got the date wrong! No class. But, I thought, Noah is not doing well today. I will go home and spend time with him as I work.

That's what he liked best: just to BE with us. His bed is in my home office. So, as I worked at the computer all day, Noah lay on his bed behind my chair, just as he normally would. I know it gave him comfort that I was there all day.

Noah followed me everywhere, normally. When he was underfoot while I was trying to cook, I'd command, "Out of the kitchen!" and he would mostly obey. When I went out to garden, he would always pick a spot near me and just be there to smell the flowers and herbs and enjoy the breeze and sun with me. I loved that.

He played with us in all kinds of weather.

He greeted me whenever I came home, and waited patiently for me on the porch, a protective sentry and guardian.

He was so handsome. And it was flattering how crazy he was about me!

Noah, you always waited for me. Alone. Vigilant. Ready to love me. Now you've moved on to heaven. Please wait for me there.

Love you, Noah. Good-bye darling friend.

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posted by msbhavn

With sincere sympathy on the loss of your beloved pet...
May wonderful memories forever remain in your heart.
The tribute to Noah was touching...thank you for sharing with all of us....

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posted by MaryDungan

I cried as I read your posting. It brought back the pain of my beloved Shadow's passing. My sincerest condolences on the loss of your beloved friend and companion. He's at the Rainbow Bridge now-at peace.

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posted by jazzyplayer

This is a wonderful memorial to your beloved boy.....with tears in my eyes I know all about the emptyness somewhere inside... He was a handsome guy...you can see the love and devotion in his eyes....how he misses you right now too!!!! Tomorrow will be better....... thinking of you today!!!!

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posted by tulipsNchimneys

A moving and beautiful tribute to a noble, sweet and beautiful dog. I am so glad you were with Noah in his final hours~

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posted by usmcma

What a magnificent animal! How empty your heart must be! I'm so sorry for your loss. You have some beautiful photos of him. My Rocky is getting on in years, and you have reminded me to take more pictures of him. They can be a comfort when they're gone. I sure hope "all dogs go to Heaven" because I sure do want to see mine there. Go with God, dear Noah.

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posted by TaylorBel

I don't believe in any rainbow bridge, Noah was welcomed home to Heaven where he belongs. He was your Fur angel and he waits for you there. He did his dog job well and he is being rewarded and will one day welcome you home.

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posted by MargieFourroux

I cried as I read about your Noah. I very much understand your pain. I lost my baby a while ago and have not been able to get over it. The worst part of it was that she died alone. I was not there for her final moment and it is a heavy burden that I carry around with me waiting for the day when we reunite.

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posted by CarrieJean

Thank you, everyone, so much, for your kind words and support and sharing your own experiences and stories of going through this. It has meant a lot to me.

I made it to work yesterday, but just barely. I turned the car around twice, deciding I couldn't make it, and I would just go home and cry. I finally turned it around a third time, and went to work. The folks there were kind and gentle with me as well.

Last night I got home to find my son, bouquet of flowers in hand, standing on my porch. He said he wanted to give me the memory of HIM standing there waiting for me as a faithful sentry now. He also brought dinner so I didn't have to cook, and strong arms to hold me while I cried all over his shirt :).

My daughters came too, and my husband joined us after work, and it was just like an Irish wake, as they chatted and ate dinner and kept us company for the evening out on the patio, as the sun set and the lightning bugs came out.

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posted by dylansmimi

Your tribute to your beloved dog was very moving. I lost my sweet Buddha in April and I still step over him and see him in every corner and shadow. He was my constant and faithful companion and a quiet presence everywhere. I loved all the photos of Noah...he had such a soulful face and eyes. He will be waiting for you and he knows how much you loved him. Thanks for sharing.

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