One time, I was complaining about an old boss and someone asked me if how the boss was behaving was anythign new or unusual. I had to admit that it wasn't and that I'd been complaining about the same things for years. So, then, he asked me, why do you still react the same way to things you know won't change? I had to admit that it was a fair question. Since then, I've tried to pay attention to my reactions and figure out how to make them more appropriate and less stressful to myself.

So, now I find myself in a situation where two people are behaving exactly as they have always behaved and I'm being bothered by it. So, I keep telling myself that I am better than this reaction and that I will be the mature one of this sad little trio and I won't let their issues be my issues.

But all that's happening is that I keep opening myself up to the inevitable hurt of watching what they are doing. I won't call either of them on their bahvior because I want to think I'm above that. I won't mak ethe other changes I'd need to make to stop seeing the behavoir. So I think I deserve the hurt and the anger and, in the end, the loss of trust in someone who is supposed to be a friend. Yet, I really believe that his behavior is done out of ignorance and because he believes the facade I've been maintaining. Since he doesn't seem to have any kidn of a facade, why should he think that mine isn't real?