I just can not seem to get sleepy tonight. It is now 2:05am and I have taken all pills and yet my eyes are wide open. I keep thinking I am not worried about my mom but I know that I am as she is just about all that is on my mind.
My IBS is kicking full force and my stomach is so bloated and in pain. The head/neck/shoulder pain is also rearing it's ugly head tonight along with the rest of my body. I just feel UGH. I know it is coming from stress but that is something that I just can not help. I have sat way too much tonight and that is causing pain in my legs and feet and the OLD arms feel like they are going to fall out of their sockets. Well, if they did maybe they would not be aching so terribly. From my knees to the top of my legs feels like someone has used them for a punching bag and nearly punched the tar right out of me. Oh boy am I sounding country tonight.
Oh the lower back. I guess that is from the 4 minor bulging disc or who knows, the fibro. Even my butt hurts and now that is bad when even your butt hurts. Still the worse is the arms where they enter the sockets and the IBS. The IBS is keeping me so sick to my stomach that most of everything I have eaten has NOT stayed down. The pain in my stomach will not even ease up with the donnatal which is wierd because it has always eased before.
I am managing to do pretty good on the blood sugar. It has gotten up a couple of times this past 11 days but the highest has only been 156 which I kinda doubt if that is very good but hey, it is better than the 297 it was at the dr's after the GTT test. Mostly it has been in the low 100's but I really think I will be able to control it with no sugar, well mostly no sugar and some walking if I can ever get back to that. Each time I think this is the week that I will start back to my walking the bam a flare up and I can hardly move much less walk.
Maybe next week will be the week to start back on my walking. Tomorrow, oops, today I am going to try and wash clothes and do alittle house work and see if I can't just surprise my hubby with a little cleaner house without him having to pitch in and also to try and cook dinner by myself.
I guess I will take my muscle relaxer, flexeril, and try to get just a couple hours sleep. It is already 2:23 so if I am going to try and get any sleep at all I better get to bed NOW, even though I am wide awake. Full of nerves that are racking my whole body. I feel so tense and nervous, achy, paining, bla, shakey and EXHAUSTED. Very very exhauxted.