I am sitting her wide awake and in pain from the back of my head on down through my shoulder, gheez that is a new one, NOT.....I am still just as tired as I have been all day long even though for alot of the day I laid on the sofa and slept. The tiredness is about a level 10 and the pain from the head/neck/shoulder is about a 7. I am still very sore and my arms and elbows are just throbbing. Nothing is throbbing like the head though. I am going to try and that is the big word TRY to go to bed at 1:00am but unless something changes in the next 30 minutes I am not sure I will go to sleep. I am saving the flexeril to take at bedtime and hopefully that will help me sleep some.
Tomorrow or should I now say today is FIBROMYALGIA AWARENESS DAY, May 12th, 2008 and this will be the first. I am so glad that it is finally getting out there in the forfront and hopefully more people will learn more about it and who knows maybe even more doctors will come to recognize it as a real disease NOT A THING IN OUR MINDS. Now if we could just get the SS office to understand more about this disease and how it takes over our bodies and our minds. I wish that all the social security people working on our social security disability cases and the judges that are to hear them would watch the news show tomorrow and learn what we really go through to see how it has changed our lives, our working lives and home lives. I am no longer the person I was 3 or 4 yrs. ago. I mean NOTHING. I can not do the things I use to do, not even the simply things like cooking our dinner. I get so tired trying to cook, can not stand that long or then sit that long either. That is why my poor husband helps with cooking every single night and that I hate the most. He should not have to work all day long then come on and help me cook and clean up after dinner but neither of us have the choice. He tells me all the time "there are good times and bad times in a marriage" I tell him that he got the short end of this marriage. He helps me so much in everything. From housework to just everyday things.
Well, guess I will start getting myself ready to try and call it a night.