Sometimes Ya have to work a little :-)

I hate depression. But try as I might and try to avoid it everynow and the it gets the better of me. Lately my minor bouts with depression occur because of "X-factor" things that happen even after all that planning and research done to avoid just that. Being a stranger in a strange land can be an adventure. But with that adventure comes luggage and problems everynow and then. Lately I've been shifting some of that so called luggage around to hopefully make my enviroment better and alittle more secure. But try as I might the workings of all this seem to be getting messier and even more confusing. When I try to explain it to the closest person in my life somehow it just doesn't get into that other brain and register. I really have a hard time having to rely on another's aid sometimes. But when trying to enlist that required aid that actually will effect the relationship of both parties involved isn't treated with respect and disreguard now, that hurts. This makes someting hard enough already now twice to three times labor intensive and maybe as expensive in money regards.
Sitting back and trying to get a better handle on the situation. The only option I see at the present time is to wait and see how the whole "game" plays out. Best to wait and consider other options I guess. I really do appreciate the input you folks have written about since I've been here in eons. Your a great group of folks. Some of you are dealing with some grave and important issues. It is helpful to read your feelings and goals. Things seem to balance out in the end I hope. Well, here's to more good and postive things happening.