On December 23, 2007, my life was changed in a way I never expected. I was in a one car accident along with four of my friends and one of my friends sons. I was partially ejected through the back window along with the friend who was sitting beside me. I was trapped and could not get out. My friends was laying across me and she died instantly. I was left with a fractured back, three fractures to my pelvic bone, dislocated shoulder, dislocated collar bone and various cuts and bruises.
All of the injury's are healing. My heart and mind however are not doing so well. I have felt guilt, dispair, fear and thanfulness. I am a caretaker by nature and the hardest thing for me to do is ask for help. I have not only had to ask for help I have had to sit back and allow people to help me. I am doer in part because I am not patient and I don't like to wait for things to get done by others so, I do it myself. I have learned to be patient. I have also learned that the things that were important to me before are even more so now. There are things that I wanted to do and thought I would have time to do them later. That is not true, there may not be here later.
My worst fear in life, next to losing one of my children, has been that something would happen to me and then what would happen to my children. I have had to see that worst fear unfold through my friends children. Their lives are not what they should be because their Mom is no longer here.
Every day I struggle to move forward not only physically but emotionally. Some things are better but some things will take time.
My life changed forever that night. Some changes I have already seen and others are sill unfolding. I don't know what the future holds but I intend to cherish each moment.