before I was born except mother. Mohter is that little girl in the middle between two other girls. Bottom middle photo.
Love the haircuts.
19th Feb 2007,
Time has come up and smacked me silly. I lost all of that Fri. Maybe because
there were things gong on, mostly phone calls.
Sat, well, kind of a blur. Did straightened up just in case
someone does come to the
house.
Ah, then a wonderful balmy day in So. Calif.
Sunday.
The weirdest thing happened.
hubby and I went out of the house
together,
at the same time,
no reason to hurry the morning.
The drive itself was sensual.
Over some of the Mesa we live on
Certain roads that lead to and around the
PCH, Hwy 1, have the most spectacular
vistas of the Ocean.
We were going to go right to the swap-meet, but did a "mini" roadtrip to see of the "driver-thru Starbucks" down at Brookhurst and Adams.
We come down Victoria to Brookhurst, and as one descends down,
across the Santa Ana river that "dumps" right to the ocean. On a good day due to the curve, Catalina can be seen
off in the horizon.
The air is ether filled with grit, from Flo,
or sweetened by "onshore Eddie" with warm Pacific breeze.
Anyway, that Startbucks isn't finished yet!! Damn, but we can come back and get some photos.
How many drive-thru Starbucks have you seen?
Did a bit of marketing at the Ralph's, fairly new, & kind of still setting up.
Good sized. I't ok, if one is in the area.
Off to the swap-meet. Checked out a few things
My Plumeria fertilizer guy still isn't out .
The breads were heavy, and the samples
didn't quite measure up. A steady wind is coming in
off the ocean.
If one is going up Adams to OCC, an easy way to go is Up Adams
to Mesa Verde Dr., turn right and follow the curb lane to Harbor. Left turn and if clean merge all the way over to the fast lane. the next signal get into the left turn lane
Left to Fairview-OCC-on your left! Right on Fairview,
Fairview to Newport in the left-hand lane.
Right on Newport. Down to bay, turn left.
End of Bay, well . . .
It was like I just took a breath!
Tuesday, 20th Feb 2007
It's Tuesday.
Not sure how the 7 steps of grief is suppose to go here. Not a lot of information or
what is doing on now.
Ok, yesterday, the big bedroom. Do it, we did. Including ripping up that carpet
in the bedroom. D A M N..............
THE PRETTIEST SOLID OAK FLOOR APPEARED!
I will say I really really really hate carpet. It's always dirty, and
we all know it! enough said.
But, the truth is we decided to do
the big bedroom so we would
have our beginning.
Been kind of stuck
in the house
Mother's care
the final days
Anyway, it's done and "OH mY God"
Thinking is terrible. I hate it
when I can see what an a bit of difference. All my life I have been taught
to think, think, and think. The jobs I've had were manual labor types.
One can still do a LOT of thinking. Visual, Visual is next. See the box grid and decorate.
Didn't need to measure anything. Weird.
Truth be told I had brought down the rest of the best of my thinks from
Bellingham.
I think that's why it just went. We began at around 8-am. An hour for lunch, and were done
by 2pmish. And that includes the closets and drawers.
Between Mother's things, I can merge
very well!!! Too much thinking.
I still get up around 3:30, because of Bandit, the
big black and white cat.
He usually wants to go out. Gotta give him credit, he
does ask. His nose is really out of joint
with the switch of the bedrooms. He is
still in the old room, on top of the twin bed box spring and mattress.
Plus he has discovered the "gel pillow" we had
had in the wheelchair. Well, will have to keep you updated
in that.
Munch still looks at me like, "WELL". She kind of knows
about dead. But, I had moved the hope
chest under the front window in the big bedroom.
Covered it with her flannel, pillowcases,
that had come from her "bed".
Twin beds, night-stand, with mattresses. Hard rock
maple. These will outlast your great-grand
kids it is so heavy!! Also safe for earthquakes, being that it is so heavy.
Just kidding.
Been really just lost in non-thought. I just want to be
Took today off. Just had "burn-out"! slept
naps all day. Made a quick chili
for lunch.
I had frozen a batch of meet balls
the last time I did my sauce.
A little tomato juice, mexican chili spice,
paprika, dry colmans mustard-canned red
kidney beans-and voile! Let bubble for
a couple of hours.
Naps, bits of TV, a smoke or two.
Decompressing. For right now, I figure
to just let the day decide what I do!
So, today was "nap" day. I did dream that
Mother had to go to the commode,
then jumped out of her wheelchair, backwards,
and was off. Realizing, I was dreaming
I changed the dream. Big band and swing
keeping happy times at forefront! Maybe we don't enjoy
enough of comfortable.
Hubby has a meeting with his astro photography group.
Look at stars, take some pictures, share online.
So, I'm not interested. He's happy, so I'm happy.
Lots of phone calls. Johnny, Rod, Jim. A card from Carol Van Holt.
That's nice.
I informed John, our gardener.
Mother has had John, for over 10 years.
He was broken up.
Called Tom. Gloria called
back later, Dave talked with her.
That's good. "nap" again. I am
beginning to feel better.
Over the weekend, I took a "salt" bath.
Not sure where that comes from. Epsom
salt in hot water. Nothing else.
Scrub with the salt. Maybe it is
something like a Turkish bath. Hot mud
which is usually a sulfur type. Gotta be that side
that comes from Lithuania.
Maybe the Danes. I listened and
saw mysterious wonders.
Felt things I must do. Responsibilities are a bitch!
But, I can now be my own responsibility! My turn.
Ramblings. I just gotta put these things down. thousands of thoughts running around in my skull. Auto-pilot isn't fun. Just need to kick back a few moments.
Normal for this time-right?????
