It Has Been 5 Month's Since I Turned 50!!! And I Can See My Self Changing And Even That My Life Path Is Different And My View Of Spirituality!!!! Turning 50 Has Shown Me That I AM Now A Crone!!! And More Into Teaching Other's and Cleansing My Self Of My Past,Of Harmful People In My Life,Bad Energy Around Me,Of My Health Problems By Way Of Finding Ways To Live With Them And Control Them,Even My Disabilities!!,My Enviroment in My Home,Growing Into My Psychic Abilities And Other Abilities And Gift's More,Becoming A Mother Finally!,As A Woman,Goddess,Crone and Witch,Friend and Mother!,More Spiritual In As In All I See Around Me and In My Soul,Mind And Body!,Learning More About Becoming a Solitary Eclectic Disabled Wiccan,Death I Never Fear IT Since I Accepted Christ At Age 14 And After My Near Death Expierence in 1982!!! I Welcome The Day I Die And Go Home To My Love One's and The Children I Lost! And I Know I AM On A Path Of REBIRTH In MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!!! Back On Sept 10,1999 My Old Life Died When Iwas Diagnosed With A Rare Fibromyalgia And on New Year's Eve 8 Years LATER I FINALLY Accepted That This Life Was Never Coming BACK And TOLD MY FIBRO IT NO LONGER HAD CONTROL OVER ME!! BUT I HAVE CONTROL OVER IT!!! Today It Soon Will Be Almost A Year Since I VOWED THIS!!! And I Kept This VOW!!! I Am Making A Bunch Of New Friend's Here And On Another Site And As I Told A Friend Here This ALL Was Meant To BE!!! It Was Part Of My Life Cycle And My Life Path To Meet The People I Have For I AM On A Learning Path In My Life Right Now And Each One Of My Friend's Have Something I Learn From Them As I Have For Them To Learn From ME!! Thing's ALWAYS HAPPEN FOR A REASON!!! My Whole Life Is Filled With Lessons!!! And When I Find My Other Son! Boy! This Will Be A Huge Life Lesson For Me TOO!!! My Older Son Certainly Is Giving Me ALOT TO LEARN TO BE A MOTHER!!! He Still Don't TRUST ME!! So We Need Time YET To Know Each Other And This Will Be A Huge Part Of My Life That Will Be A Growth Expierence And Cleansing TOO!!! Also A Life Cycle For We Will Become A Family When My Other Son Joins US FINALLY!!! My Spiritual Side Is Eclectic!! I Pray Still To God!! That Is My Baptist Up Bringing and My Going To Many Churches As A Child And Accepting Christ At The First Ever Billy Graham Crusade In Cleveland,OH When I Was 14. And Going To A Episipicol Church When I Was Going To Pittsburgh Job Corps From 1979-1980!! I Even Sung In The Choir and Solo's For The First Time in Over 80 Years There!! I Always Sang Solo's And in The Choir since I Was A Kid!! I Was Pregnant Even With My Younger Son Then!!! My Mom And Dad Were Wiccan And Belonged To Many UFO Groups When We Were Kid's And When We Visited They Got Us Into IT!!! I Even Got My Wiccan/Indian Name Princess White Dove At Age 12 At The Camp They Belong To and Lived AT!!! They Taught Me Meditation,Guided Imagery,Chanting,And How To Handle Being Psychic(my Mom was Psychic),she also taught me how to release ghost's!!! I Believe In All Religions!!! And I AM Even Interested In Native American Ways!!! I Grew Up Knowing About Norse Mythology and Lore,King Arthur,Camelot,Knights Of The Round Table,Asatru,Thor,Odin, Egyptian Times etc.... I Love Astrology and Astronomy!!! Edgar Cayce,Carl Sagan,Jeanne Dixon and Sylvia Browne Are My Favorites!!! I Even Astral Project and Speak In Tongues!! And I Been Known Due To Many Past Lives As A Indian Woman To Speak In Many Indian Languges And 2 Indians I Knew Had Me Do It And They Told Me Which Ones I DO!!! I Find It Weird!!! But Amazing That I Can Do This!! I Hope Not To Offend No One Here By This But I Just Never Mention This Ever!!! But I Had To Now!!! My Spirit's Are Leading Me To Write As I Am!!! This Is What I Mean My Life Is Changing And I Feel It!!! And I Feel My Spirit Guide,Totems,Spirit Animal's and My Spirit's All Around ME!!! They Guide Me All The Time!!! And Teach ME TOO!!! And I Welcome This New ME!!! I Welcome Being A CRONE!!!!
