I have allowed myself to become overwhelmed by
the goings on at my place of employment. From October 3,2007 until now, I have fallen down and I have gotten up a number of times. I have never been a boxer but, I have decided I am tired of being knocked down and I am not going to take it any more. Life is too short and, I thought I had learned that when assaulted by colon cancer in 2003. Yet,
I have repeatedly allowed others who in the grand scheme of things are insignificant to repeatedly knock me down both in spirit and financial security.

I have come to realize in the past 48 hours that,
no matter how much sleep I lose worrying about
losing my job if it is going to happen it is going to
happen. There is but one God in my life and, what he has determined my life will be is what it will be.

Here I am 4 years out from thinking I was dead and dying yet, he has allowed me to live to go through
these trials and tribulations. Perhaps, it is to make
me see that nothing I or my enemies can do will
change what he has determined my life to be.

It's a given that, our society economically and otherwise sucks. Perhaps, we as mere people have
tried too hard to be Gods instead of god like.

I don't know all of the answers but, I do know that
being human my spirits will be up and they will be
down. Only I can decide whether to stand up
or lay down. As of this writing and the past 48
hours I am deciding to stand up. If I lose this
job and don't lose my life I will find another job.
No longer will I deny myself the enjoyment of
Eons and my eons friends. I have found both
friends and family here on Eons.

To those who have become my family(you know who you are) I am sorry for having been so weak and please know that from here on I will be here for you as you have been here for me.

To those who have become my friends please know that, you too are important to me and I will not leave you again.

I affirm this in writing not for you all but, so that I
when feeling weak or faltering can read this and remind myself not to allow anyone or anything
less than God almighty to make me forget.