How can I miss it? **
I NEVER HAD IT !
What I considered
flesh and blood
was nothing but a bubble
of digital code.

Hours, days, WEEKS,
of imagining
what was there
and yet was not,
although it was to me.

Dangerous, giving your heart
to a dream.
They have the innate ability
to turn into nightmares
of loneliness.

Ridiculous, getting caught up
in the game of give and take
in the world of make-believe.
Because, as they say,
IT'S NOT REAL!

But it is to me,
wrapped in my loneliness,
it was real and really
all I had to show
to myself every morning.

Upon awakening,
there it was
on the screen, a life,
a vision, a love.
That in some strange way
was MINE, and yet

I knew, deep in the pits,
that it was not to be
because even if it was not real.
it was really............ a woman.
a cyber woman.