I was trying to find a way to be helpful and kind to the widow, Athena, and I hit on an idea to use my ability to use computer programs to put together a video of Ed - scan in all his photos from his entire life, add his favorite music to play while the pics are being viewed and also add personal things that his wife will tell me about so that this is a totally personal experience for those who loved Ed. Athena is very grateful and excited to work with me on it. They were together 16 years and I can then also put it on a myspace so people who knew him could have it just by downloading it. I knew I was given these talents to be helpful and useful to others - this can be a type of healing for all of those who are grieving and celebrate his life as they remember him and all those special moments. His daughter is only 3 so this will make her Dad more real to her as she grows up. I am just going to bring Athena up to my place and let her stay several days - we can work on this project, hang out and give her a change of scenery. I just met her twice and only for a short time when I was either picking Ian up or dropping him off at Ed's - but she has been surprisingly open to our new friendship - she loves Ian and he goes down there alot to check on her and spend time with Ed's son like he did while Ed was alive. That seems to help him to be there for Ed's son - knowing that he lost his dad the same age the Ian lost his - he know how he felt and how devistated he was during that time... I found it wonderful that Ian and I have been so close all these years - have been hanging together alot anyway - so it doesn't seem strange for me to call him alot and spend time with him - it is just normal. He has opened up to me about things that are so painful to hear but I know he needs to express his feelings so I just listen... but inside, my heart is breaking as he puts his pain into words... It has brought many good things to light and I tell Ian that I believe that Ed knows what is going on here and is glad to have Ian there to help Ed's family as they adjust to life without him in his physical body. I want to believe he is with us in spirit.

Some things I just don't know for sure - I just feel things and hope that is why - because he is just not in body form anymore but is still with us every day...

This has reminded me yet again to let everyone know how much I appreciate them each day - and be helpful and an encouragement to others...

Linda