I'm only 46 - just at the end of the Baby Boomers. I had my kids when I was in my early 20's. Once the youngest graduated from high school in 2007, we moved in to help care for mom with Alzheimers.
Two years later and I've lost contact with all of my girlfriends. I have had a series of internal problems related to stress. I do not have a "life" per se in the outside world.
Because of the economy's effect on the corporation where I worked, the company had to make some changes which compromised my job position. I think you all know what that means . . . That happened in August 2009.
How in the world do I start to regain my life, both personal and professional? I'm home so much that I have become the most available caretaker to relieve my father. That is good, but I find myself feeling holed up.
I guess I can also say I know who are and who are not my true friends. I'm sad to say that a high percentage of those I felt would be there for me are now no longer in touch.
I pray that God will give me wisdom and hope so that I will be able to make new friends and look forward to my future.
Lastly, my children have had some rough times in addition to living at their grandparents' home and dealing with Alzheimer's daily. They have had their sweethearts break up with them -- at the time when their friends are getting married to their own sweethearts. I feel like we are frozen in time as the rest of the community where I've lived most of my life is proceeding in life -- going on vacations to warm places, celebrating the marriages of their kids, etc.
I guess when one thing gets you down, everything wrong is magnified. And I know I'm feeling sorry for myself; but sometimes you just have to let it out -- even if it is into Cyberspace.
If you have read this, would you please pray for me? I love God; I have faith through Jesus Christ, and God never promised us a smooth life on this planet. However, just once in a while I wish I'd be the one able to vacation in a warm climate or to celebrate the joy of my kids as they move forward in their lives.
Prayer works - I believe that, so please pray. I know I'll feel better tomorrow if prayers are being said for me today.
Thank you, Eon friends and visitors to my blog.
"K"
