It seems life has been spinning for me since April. I lost my dog(furbaby) and my mother in law both in April, and many veteran friends passed away too. My husband and I are both disabled veterans. He has been getting weaker in the last few months, but the last two weeks it seemed to be getting worse. He went to his VA hospital appointment and collapsed. His legs gave out totally. His blood work was off the charts, especially his liver and kidneys. The muscles in his legs deteriorated and released toxins(poison) through out his body. He will have to learn to walk and eat, and bath all over again. He is at a hospital 3 hours one way from our home. I have been down there all week. I am home for a day or so to take care of business and check in here at eons. I am reflecting tonight on how and why things happen as they do, and although sad and depressed I am looking for the rainbow or silver lining. I am counting blessings as well...He is alive, his blood counts are no where near normal, but on the way down.
I do believe everything happens for a reason even if I do not understand why. I will try to look for the rainbow, and accept the only sure thing in life is change. I have spend a lifetime it seems hoping the world would slow down a bit for me, but it seems the one thing I have to accept is change is the one thing that will be the only sure thing, and we will turn, turn, turn with the changes in life that get thrown at us, and new journeys. I know I will get through this newest challenge. I do ask for your prayers for my husband and I.
I often turn to music to make sense of my feelings and express them and this song came to me today as I pondered all of this and all that has happened in the last year.

I do believe to everything there is a season. It may be the Autumn of my life and my husbands as well, but despite the challenges, losses there is still laughter and joy yet to come..I cannot be sure at the moment why this happened except sometimes each event in our life comes to teach us new things to learn about life. It is also a way to reach out to friends and ask for prayers and let you know how grateful I am to have you all as friends, and many kindred sisters, and veteran sisters and brothers. here at eons...Thank you to all at eons who have been here for me as life turns. I will continue to have my sad moments as to why this happened, but I am moving toward acceptance. It is a time to dig deep and find my inner guide and my higher power and still reach out..Just wanted to share my thoughts and feelings as life continues to turn for me and my family. Blessings to all...I will continue to howl loud for strength, and be grateful for all of you and family....I will be back in groups as soon as I can..Thank you all!!