THE RAIN ON MY HEART IS DROWNING ME... I try to Love somebody... But Love won't let it be... I want to feel the emotion... that I've felt ~ I know once before... the feeling of a breath soft kiss... a touch unlike any before... I'm smothered ~ No Air... No Freedom to see... a promise I made is now devouring me... it's easy say so many ~ to change this in your life... so say's this friend who was never there when things just didn't seem right... Act as though you're happy ~ a smile and a kind word... laugh and listen to all that they say ~ forget no not one word... and hope that somewhere in between ~ you get in a word or two and they may try to remember what, it is they said they'd do... Exhausted from trying~ from prayer and effort to understand... I fall victim to what it is I fear the most... my desire to stay and keep you happy as I give up a life for myself... I move in your circles ~ as I've always done... knowing that I'm out of place and the butt of even a few jokes... And you ~ You know I'm not happy... and that I've never been... and when change was offered to you... you turned it to the wind... So now I lay awake at night, alone though you're very near... not to touch, to hold or kiss ~ just to share the air... I work to find a method that will allow me to excape... and not take anything from you... for I still feel you're my Best Friend...
Strange..?