Last year I wound up near death in the hospital, only to get well enough for them to make enough mistakes to nearly kill me twice, coding once...and I saved myself on that one!! Well, in Oct 2008 I find myself having to return to the hospital, only this time for a bilateral hip surgery.. badly needed. Knowing ALL the mistakes they made with medications last time, MD's wanting to do procedures that would tie me to Dialysis for life when not required right then and all the other things I AM SCARED TO DEATH of what could happen this time. Will I wake up from the surgery? Will I come out of the hospital alive? Will they cause another problem that I didn't go in with?
I have been in and out of hospitals for a lot of my earlier life, but not in the past 25 years, and the level of carelessness has really accelerated. Its not the nurses, the primary caregivers, but the MD's writing the orders without checking other doctors' orders first, or making sure something that was supposed to be done had been done before doing the second step,etc.
Though I have tried to keep a positive attitude the past several months knowing this would be coming, the closer it gets the more anxiety I have. I will make sure my affairs are in order before I go just in case...but I am hoping it will just be a dry run!
posted by Zeebers
It is becoming apparant that the faith we put into the medical profession years ago, has come undone. The world has changed. I went into the hospital in April, and due to my age ( sixty) they tried to "give" me other ailments. I defied the diagnoses, much to the upset of my doctor loving friends ( no judgement intended) and signed myself out.
I did this years ago, when I was told I was not pregnant...for six whole months...and was ordered to have a D&C which I knew only happened for one reason. I walked out. Signed myself out. This was 1974. As a result, my eight pound 13 and a half pound daughter was born healthy and intact.
They have tried to "give" me breast cancer for about forty years, and I kindly passed on it. I have no desire to get some of the stuff they keep trying to give me. Now, I am not making light of your fears. I am simply saying that so many of us are looking ( without fear) into alternative meds and other forms of healing our bodies.
Do what you need to do...and as rambling as this sounds, there is a method to my madness. I do not know about your spiritual beliefs, but I will be praying for you during this time. When is your procedure?
Your post simply touched me in some way. We are in this together!
Zenobia ( Zee)
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