God i need a cat
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the apartment i live in allows pets but requires a 300 buck security deposit against any damage they may cause. I want a cat so much. THey are wonderful little independent regal furballs. I love the smell of warm fur on my face in the morning. Wai...
woe is me -- for a while anyway
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my sister and her 40 something son think it is funny that my brother molested me. At this point i am not angry anymore and i have accepted that they are truly screwed up in the head. I just wonder what the hell do they think i did or am that would...
what a messy place my head is in
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well, today i got into an argument with a service tech about my scooter. It was unnecessary. I was suffering from the effects of abuse which means that i was expecting a hard time and when i got it it vindicated my feelings about men. How unreason...
ptsd and why i can't get over it
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Saturday is the native American festival celebrated by my relatives in Virginia. My abusive and totally in denial brother will be there as will his nephew who told me to go ahead and commit suicide because no one would miss me. My son wants me to ...
Thomas Merton for a Sunday Afternoon
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“It is almost impossible to overestimate the value of true humility and its power in the spiritual life. For the beginning of humility is the beginning of blessedness and the consummation of humility is the perfection of all joy. Humility contains...
it was all so simple
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okay, so now i know. I let my fear paralyze me. As regarding demons all the research and praying i did that added up to nothing was all about nothing. I tried the Catholic exorcism which seemed to work for a time. I tried praying the prayer of loo...
they say you have to do the grunt work yourself
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well, my cousin prayed with me over the phone and told me some good things. With hope i picked up my Bible, read and studied and prayed. I spent the whole day today doing that and trying to rebuke the devil at the same time. I put a lot of effort ...
someone said i had drama.....
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I came up with a definition of drama and would like your feedback. I have been told i have too much drama. I think drama is just the unexpressed and unfulfilled spiritual and emotional needs we all feel as humans. When our dignity and spiritual in...
it's three am, set 'em up Joe
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woke up again in the wee hours. it was not pain or a bathroom call or hunger or thirst but i don't know what did wake me up. tv was blaring Cold Case. love that show. love the cast and the characters. now there are only infomercials. so here i am....
